As I am typing this, I have just woken up from my sleep, or maybe I didn’t… Sleeping has been a nightmare for me recently, the lingering darkness eats me up as I close my eyes at night. So afraid of waking up in the morning. I haven’t had nice dreams lately, nor bad ones. They all went through like normal and a blur in everyday’s shadow.
“To have an honest love is to know the flaws inside and out, to be aware that nobody is perfect, and that the person on the other side of you is probably in contention for least perfect person of all.”
I know this is a long overdue post about the typhoon Haiyan, but I just want to release all my feelings regarding the disaster that’s happened. It’s a mix of extreme sadness, and frustration. You’ll find out why in the next paragraphs
Interesting read about dating a girl and a woman. What the main differences of the two are, and what how to deal with each one. I’m not saying that being a girl is a bad thing, but I’d rather have someone who has the qualities of a woman. The maturity, the self-sustaining qualities, and how they present themselves physically.
“I know I’ve said not much, but know that now, as I speak, I know precisely what to say. You. You are my frustration. This. This is my sublimation. I love you, whoever you were, and whoever you would turn out to be. I love you beyond the words, the art, and the anarchy.”
Hey grandpa, hey grandma,
Its that time of the year again, its All Souls’ Day, November 1. Its that time of year where every school is on holiday for the two days, and where families gather and go to the cemetery to visit you guys. Its where I get to see my family again, and where we get to catch up.
But I’m so sorry that I had to miss this year for you, since I’m stuck here in Singapore. I know this is the first time that I’ll be missing to visit you guys there at your resting place, but I assure you that nothing has changed. I still miss and love you even from far away. I will be praying for you from here, so that I get to be with you even if I’m not physically there.
I still can’t help but think of how things are really going well with my life. I have this looming doubt over my head that tells me to not be too excited and happy, because I’ve experienced a lot of things that have gone downhill after an extremely blissful time in my life.
Will things suddenly drop and crash down like how it happened in the past? That is my million-dollar question for the moment right now.
To be honest, you’ve been the best thing that happened since I came here, and I am really scared at this point that sometimes, it just makes me think– what made me deserve this? Like it’s something too good to be true. Past experiences have proven this phenomenon true for myself. Countless blessings have been showered on me, but after that extremely blissful feeling, there would come a disaster, as if the gods ask for something in return.
Hopefully, this could last. Like I’ve said, I’m willing to be scared, if it means being scared together. Facing the future would be scary, but I’m willing to face it if I’m with you.
Suddenly, I’m back to where I started…